New Member From New England Here...

BlessedBe333 · **Posted:** Thu Dec 29, 2011 3:43 pm

Hello. I just registered here at the Magicka School, and have begun studying my first course "Wicca Revealed," with great interest. I am very encouraged to see the great depth of information contained here at this website. I believe I have already been able to clear up certain misconceptions I had about the Craft by reading about its history and its foundations.

My name is Scott, and I live in central Massachusetts (US). I was adopted at age 2 in 1970, but I reunited with my birth family 3 years ago in 2008. My birth mother says that my grandmother, her mother, had "the Gift." I believe I have it also, and that I am actually a gifted psychic. I am not entirely certain how this dove-tails with Magicka and The Craft. If any of you who are more experienced with this could enlighten me as to this topic, that would be most appreciated.

The primary reason why I claim I am "psychic," is because I have had several very supernatural experiences that seemed to happen quite by accident to me over the years (I will be 44 on January 28, 2012). I think the most profound experience I had concerned a young man named Thomas who died of a tragic moped accident when I was in high school in 1986. I didn't know him very well at all. The day of his wake, I kept hearing an inner Voice urging me to "go to his wake."

I finally relented and did attend his wake. After praying over his body (I am currently a practicing Christian), I went to express condolences to his parents. When I made contact with his father by shaking his hand, what basically happened is that I saw the soul of the deceased in front of his body, calling out to his parents. His parents, in turn, seemed, in my point of view, to be a mile away from me, in an insurmountable, inky blackness or void, crying out, "Son, we love you, come back to us." The deceased (their son), said to them "Mom, Dad, I love you, and I need to go now, but I will always love you."

I will forever be struck and dumbfounded by the fact that I was allowed (predestined?) to be such an integral part of so intimate a moment, and the fact that Thomas, who was crossing over, was more concerned with his parents' well-being than his own. I believe I basically "channelled" the boy's spirit, and he used me as a medium to get his final message on Earth across to his parents that he would be leaving behind.

Also, once when I was in college, through meditation, I experienced a profound Source of Love and Light that embraced me for a good 15 minutes. It was the most joyous, wonderful, happiest moment of my life.

I have encountered people who have claimed to be "witches" or "warlocks," but now I know that they are not legitimate. One person, who claimed to be a "warlock," claimed to have advanced knowledge of the Craft. However, his behavior, particularly his drinking and drug abuse, revealed to me that he actually was very death-obsessed and suicidal (he even had a very creepy altar in his living room replete with skulls !!!)

Another "witch" I had the displeasure of encountering in 1993, who I am certain goes under several aliases (if he is still alive), physically abused me, and used mind control against me (love / sex spells ???) He claimed to be part of a coven. One very strange thing that happened to me is that he had me perform a bizarre ritual involving placing my hands in certain positions, and performing certain hand gestures, to determine "if I could be a witch." After doing this ritual with me, he claimed that I would be nothing but a "minor warlcock." However, I suspect that he innately sensed a source of great potential or power within me, and he felt threatened, so he lied about what my true potential truly was. Do any of you know about these type of rituals, and are they related to Magicka or the Craft in any way?

One concern I have is that if I do have potential in Wicca, that I might not be able to control the powers / my powers effectively. I am very much committed to Light, Love, and Joy in my religious practices. Primarily, I see myself as an "empath," like Counselor Deana Troi from Star Trek: Next Generation. I can "channel" other people's emotions. I find that grief and pain are emotions that are particularly palpable, and that I can sense much more easily than others. If "evil" does exist, it exists with people who feed off grief and pain for their own enjoyment. That, unfortunately, I have seen in the world all to often.

Once when my adopted mother was alive (pre - 2002; she died from cancer in 2002), she found several papers I had printed from my computer that I had torn up and tried to get rid of. I had been making an inventory of the abuse I had suffered at hands during my childhood with her. During the ensuing argument that happened about this, I very deliberately said, "NO!" in a commanding voice. It became a very surreal, "Harry Potter-esque" experience, because suddenly, she was rendered unable to speak for several seconds. It seemed as if I had exerted my will (perhaps magically?) upon her, to be silenced. Again, is this an indicator of some Magicka potential that is as yet not fully realized within me?

I apologize for the length of this post, but I wanted to ask several questions in a forum that I knew would be accepting, informative, and welcoming. I will continue to study and to research the Craft, and make my own decisions as to how it can enhance and develop my own latent potential. Thank you everyone for your advice and input; it is most welcome and appreciated. Take care, have a happy New Year, and Blessed Be.

New Member From New England Here...

New Member From New England Here...

New Member From New England Here...

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